cancer

It has been confirmed. I have Langerhans Cell Histiocytosis which is cancer.
It it a really rare form of cancer and now I have an oncologist who is developing a plan to treat me. What is frustrating is she can't tell me why I got it since it is so rare. Oh well, I won't let a little c stop me for I have been through worst shit than that which didn't stop me.  I love you Camden and Bowdoin!!!

I wish things were different too

Camden when you said "I wish thinnt . there was never a chance for you to see me grow up or come home from school or play football and im just thinking about it alot and how unfair things have been." I know exactly what you mean. I totally wish that things could have been different. As you know your mother refused to let me be a part of your life or Bowdoin's life.

If your mother could have kept her legs closed, we probably wouldn't have gotten divorced, but she couldn't. After the accident and divorce, Linda told everybody including you, that I died. After you saw me in the nursing home where your mother put me to isolate me from you and hope that I would die, I tried to be a part of your lives, but Linda refused to live up to and follow the divorce decree. She never let me talk to you or see you guys.

After finally getting out of the nursing home, I tried for 6 years to see you both and be part of your lives but she wouldn't let me. Basically all she ever did was lie to me non stop. She has an extensive criminal record in Florida and other states under different names. She has been married and divorced 4 times. After dealing with all her bullshit for so long, I decided to move back to Maine to get better healthcare and be happy going fishing for salmon and trout.

Camden please know that I wish I could have seen you grow up and be a part of your life! Hopefully one day we will be much closer for you will always be my son! I love you!

Merry Christmas 2017

I wished I could have had the opportunity to send you a Christmas Card over the holidays Camden and Bowdoin but your mother refuses to give me your new address,  Irregardless I hope you had a Merry Christmas and I hope you will also have a Happy New Year!  You are both old enough to give me the address but I know if you did you would face a ton of crap from Linda.  I would never tell her I got the address from you.  I love you both and miss you so much!

14 Years

Today marks the 14 year anniversary of my accident and losing my left leg above the knee. Yeah it sucks but I never want to run anywhere anyway for running causes brain damage. I have enough that from my TBI. Really the only thing I really miss is brook/stream/river fishing where I waded in to fish for trout. I don't walk well enough to that and I am forbidden to get my prosthetic knee wet due to the computer and other electronics in it. I just miss reading the water for I basically knew where to cast for a trout to rise from my analysis of the water. It was fun and I would have loved to teach that to my sons. Today also marks the anniversary of losing them as well.................

Happy Birthday Camden!

9/17/17 Happy Birthday Camden!  I don’t have your address so I can’t send you a card or anything!  I miss you and love you so much!  I hope you have a great day and a great year my son!  I am trying like hell to keep up with you and your football plays which I can see on the internet.  You certainly are a big man and you are definitely the best blocker on your line!

lying bitch

Your mother is lying again!  No surprise there.  She moves without telling me where you are so I can't send you birthcards, letters or notes.  She FALSELY accuses me of not paying child support or reducing my payments which is total BULLSHIT!  I don't know how she can be so stupid.  Social Security is reducing the support she receives and I have nothing to do with that!

Moved again without telling me

I just received Bowdoin's birthday card back unopened and undelivered to him.  The sticker from the post office said attempted to forward but unable to locate.  Bitch face moved the kids again without telling me which is another blatant violation of the divorce decree.